The picture up above is OUT OF DATE, but it already shows that a lot of birth has happened in my family! I include it to give you an idea of the legacy my mama and papa are creating. I'm so grateful they have followed their intuition and kept that spirit in our home and family. It is the same I am trying to instill in my family. Our family narratives are a wonderful (birthday) gift. :)
Actually, I don't have access to the conscious memory of my birth. Some do, they have been able to reach that portion of their brain through hypnosis, regression work, or simply by triggers of muscle memory. I think that it can be a beautiful thing, healing for many.
I do, however, have knowledge of my birth as my own mother has recounted it to me several times throughout my childhood and even a little bit today as we spoke on the phone. (Today is my birthday.) She is actually writing up my birth as she remembers it and I'll share that with you soon.
For now here is what I remember:
-my mother's first child was stillborn and she still has an emptiness and longing for this beautiful baby boy, Anthony.
-she had three children after that, one boy and two girls. (my awesome older brother and rad sisters!)
-that she and my father were firmly done having children after my older sister was born.
-one day when she was vacuuming she heard a voice, completely clear as if someone was physically standing in the room with her.
-the voice told her that she was to have another baby.
-she didn't believe it as first, or at least she wasn't totally sure that it was a good idea.
-(i think) my dad came home that day and said that he had a similar impression.
-they followed their intuition, spiritual prompting, from the messenger (I'm obviously glad that they did).
-i was small and came a little early, but healthy.
-my birth was the only one where my mother had an epidural (it was not available prior to that), she loved it.
-immediately following that she had an emergency hysterectomy because her ovaries were covered in tumors.
-that surgery has affected much of the rest of her life as have the births of her children.
-when I talk to her about her experiences in labor she's calm, she has nothing but love for all her babies and considers them to be great blessings in her life.
Birth can truly be beautiful in ALL its forms. I'm so glad my mom was able to have healing birth experiences, bond with us, and access that connection to the cosmos and feel apart of something bigger than us all- creation and miracle of life.
Blessings and Happy Birthing Ya'll!
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